The last

This is the last blog post ever to be posted on MMIX.

It's been one heck of a year in so many ways, thanks to all of you for having stuck with me for so long.

If you want to keep on reading my ramblings, my new blog can be found here:

http://therubymeadowhawk.wordpress.com/

There.

:D

See you!

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Almost last

Two more days now, and I'll finally be able to commence my quest of filling next year's blog with randomness. I'm actually rather stoked about it. I think people will have to subscribe for it themselves though, if anyone's interested. But nevermind that now, I will explain it better later!

In a way, I'm not sure if there's even any use in me writing any more blog posts here anymore, seeing as they will only "exist" for 48 more hours, and a bit more. But then again, I have things on my mind, and it's not like I'm going to delete this blog as soon as the new year announces its arrival (that would be madness), so... Well, at least ONE more! I'll see what I'm up for tomorrow.

Stunning.

Watching Big Bang Theory on Megavideo, or trying to anyway... Megavideo means 72 minutes of watching, 54 minutes of waiting. Unless you want to sign up for it and pay a monthly fee, which I have absolutely no interest in.

Vampire? XD

Oh! And talking about fee... Garry, I owe you a big thank you for generously giving me your free month of Live subscription on the 360, or whatever it is called. I owe you one.

Outside the house.

Ok... I feel this blog post is very formal for some reason, with me trying to mention as many trivialities as possible... haha. Oh well.

Dizzy.

Why do I always have so many emails to reply to? I love emails, I really do, and it's solely my own fault that I keep postponing answering them all until I have so many emails to reply to that I get scared and don't reply to any of them. Great strategy, right?

From the veranda.

Picture time! And, by the way, yes, my hair is very red. Very VERY red. I'm starting to think I won't ever get used to it. Today, when I popped by BodyShop, the girl at the counter happened to be an acquaintance of mine, and she casually noted "You've gone very red!" and I swear, it took me at least 3 seconds to understand what she meant. At first, I thought she meant my face. Duh, lizzm.

Anyroads, back to the point!

The view from my bedroom window. Snowy? Yes.

Barr yarr

Ok.

Technically, if I want to reach my year long goal of writing one blog post a day, leaving me with 365 blog posts on the 31st of November, then... I'll have to write 65 blog posts in 4 days. Or, three and a half. Since this day is almost over, and it will soon be tomorrow. Yarr. Am I going to try? No. Is it tempting? ... not really.

Instead, I'm going to dye my hair tomorrow. Unless I cave and wimp out of it. I've done that before. But, we'll see. I can't predict the exact future any more than you can. Unless you're happen to be exceptionally good at such things. Or, in that case, what I just said WOULD be true... Ok, I'm going to stop confusing myself now.

And rather type out my resolutions for the next year. If I can remember them. I had them all in my mind yesterday, because I talked to Ben about it, so I'm sure they'll come back to me if I strain my mind a little bit.

1. DO NOT stress. Very important. Not to stress myself. Ever.

2. Relax more (!), and take the time to do unnecessary things. Without freaking out about having wasted time. No time is wasted as long as it's enjoyed.

3. Trust myself.

4. Listen to myself.

5. Do what I feel like doing, not what I feel I have to do.

6. Start doing yoga again, and regain contact with myself.

7. Take care of myself, physically and mentally.

8. Visit my lovely one as often as possible.

9. Do not rob myself of pleasures and things that make me happy.

Ok, I realise I have a lot of resolutions, but a lot of them sort of intertwine, so it's not that bad really. They're all things I have to do, in order to feel good about myself. Really. I've been neglecting myself too much this year, something which became very obvious in the end. It's not really something I wish to have repeated, at least not first thing.

Anyways. Nuff rambling. Barr. I want cuddles. Calins!

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Snow

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NBNBNBNBNBNBNB!!!

ERROR. FAILURE. FAILURE. MASSIVE EXTREME FAILURE.

I cannot believe I just wrote that Maxwell's Silver Hammer is to be found on the White Album. Oh deary me. The song belongs on Abbey Road. ABBEY ROAD. I'm not sure if I can ever forgive myself for this. Slip of the mind. Completely. Gargh. Abbey Road people, Abbey Road.

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Real Love

All my little plans and schemes

Lost like some forgotten dreams

Seems that all I really was doing

Was waiting for you

Truly one of the most beautiful song lyrics I've ever ever come across. Ah, John Lennon, your mind was so intriguing. Where did you get it all from? Almost everyone condemned the love between Yoko and John. Even I used to carry my pitch fork. As soon as I found out that it was a lot due to Yoko that the Beatles split... Or, at least that's what the general public tends to believe. I'm of another opinion though. I think the Beatles would have split up anyway, they were too different and in need of their own artistic outlet, that a split was pretty much unavoidable. Yoko simply just made them realise. They were all growing apart musically, and needed to develop their own individual styles. After all, the last few years the Beatles worked together as a group, there was no such thing as a true Lennon&McCartney cooperation... John wrote his songs, Paul wrote his. Let It Be and Yesterday both belonged to Paul, while I Am the Walrus was all written by John. In fact, John strongly disliked a lot of Paul's song at the end. Had it been up to John, then Maxwell's Silver Hammer would never have made it onto the White Album, he really couldn't stand that song, and still it's labelled as a Lennon&McCartney song. Odd, isn't it? Sometimes things are just so unavoidable that nothing you do can prevent them from happening.

And also, it really bothers me that a lot of people think that songs like Real Love and Imagine belong to The Beatles. They do not. They're both solely written by John Lennon, after the Beatles split. Keep up people!

My fingers are itching. My brain is itching as well. I need to be creative, I need to write. I need it so badly! I just don't know how to formulate myself. Too many ideas, not enough structure. I can't even gather my mind enough to write it all down. And it's frustrating me! Maybe all I have to do is to get to terms with myself, and relax. Relax. I guess that's the keyword.

.... itch itch itch itch itch itch itch.

Growl.

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J'ai besion de la lune

I have a feeling my blog isn't really read by anyone anymore. I don't know why this feeling has occurred, or if it's even slightly well founded, but I have a feeling that my words have become more private all of a sudden, as if they have not been absorbed by other minds.

My friend Kristine trying to solve the knots somehow.

And strangely (or perhaps not so strangely) this doesn't bother me at all. I'm quite through with this blog myself. MMIX, or 2009 as someone choose to refer to it, has nearly come to an end, and I'm feeling relieved. Yup, relieved is the best word to use I guess, the word that describes my inner state of mind and soul at the moment. I'm so relieved that this year will finally come to an end in a few days. It's odd in a way, the turn of the year has technically not got anything special to it, it's just another day followed by another day followed by another day, restricted in time by the human made calendar. But still... it always feels like a new start to me. To me it's never just been "another day", it's always been a great turn, a new chance, and new prospects and opportunities. And I swear to whoever is out there... this January is going to be a good one! I've had enough of bad Januaries, I really think it'll have to start smirking up to me soon in order to restore its good reputation in my books.

La lune.

I think I'll have to devote another blog post to my resolutions some other time - maybe I can make it the first post in my new blog? Because yes, I've already created a new blog for myself, for next year. It's still empty though, and I'll hand out the link to people I know will have pleasure in reading my endless ramblings when the time comes. This time I'm using WordPress, it takes a while get used to it, but once you do, it's kick-ass ossum.

J'ai frois!

Also, I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas eve yesterday! Or, I guess that's my Norwegian side talking... seeing as most of my readers are of foreign origin (seen from a Norwegian perspective), you've probably spent this morning, or will spend the evening today opening wonderful little presents from family and friends and spending time with your loved ones. We're having some distant family over for dinner today, that could be interesting.

Yup, that's actually a lake.

Went for a walk earlier today with two childhood friends of mine, they were going skating (my dad wouldn't let me join, because he kept insisting that "the ice is not safe", even though it's been more than -10 degrees for a week now), and I kept them company on the way to the lake. Then I left them to their happy skating, and went back home on my own. It was really beautiful. I couldn't see the sun at all, but it was still a sort of light spreading across everywhere. The moon was already in the sky (I don't think it even leaves at all these days), and it was bloody cold - but still, I didn't freeze, which must almost be a new record for me. Applaud me, anyone?

Beautiful, neh?

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